If I Were A Boy – Beyonce

If I were a boy
even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
and I’d never get confronted for it 
cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
so they’d think that I was sleeping alone

I’d put myself first
and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’ll be faithful,
waiting for me to come home, to come home.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say it’s just a mistake,
think i’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
you thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
and you don’t understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’re taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you’re just a boy

- My Love – Celine Dion -

My love, we have seen it all
The Endless confession,The rise and fall
As fragile as a child
Lately I’m sorry I can’t hold a smile

But I stand tall to get by
No matter how hard I try to hide
Did you know I take the time for you
Did you know that I would see you through
Did you know that I would play the part
I must’ve made it clear right from the start

My love, can you give me strength
Somehow I forgot how to ease my pain
I know I’m right where I belong
Something from nothing never proved me wrong

But I stand tall to get by
No matter how hard I try to hide
Did you know I take the time for you

Did you know that I would see you through
Did you know that I would play the part
I must’ve made it clear right from the start

I would share my whole life with you
Would you do the same for me
I would give all I am to you
Would you do the same for me

And I will stand tall to get by
No matter how hard I try to hide
Could you see I’ve been brave
Did you notice all my mistakes
There were times I could feel you read my mind

Did you know I take the time for you
Did you know that I would see you through
Did you know that I would play the part
I know I made it clear right from the start

INSOMNIA!!!!!!!!!!!!

I recently had an insomnia..

I just cant sleep..

till one or two o’clock AM!

I felt my eyes were too tired to open.. But my ears and my brains were just too hyper to stop the action..

So yes.. Probably.. Eventually.. Absolutely.. I got insomnia!!

After i read about this article I think i already had insomnia before i realize it..

Before i cant sleep at nite, i usually get wake up in the midnite just to checking what time is it.. n then i fell asleep again..

or.. i usually wake up early in the morning.. and i cant get asleep again..

ok.. positively insomnia..

the diagnosis are :

1. I am not stress out

2. I dont have things to be thought of

3. I am not busy

4. I prayed before i sleep

5. Ok, i read Dracula Bram Stoker

I dont know..

I just cant sleep

after some googling, i find this article.. it said how to get over with insomnia..

well.. i think its not too effective with me..

maybe i just shut this brain down n tell it who’s the boss..

so it may understand that the boss want to get some sleepppppppppp..

Please.. i am very very sleepy… ZzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZzzzzzzzzzz

Merry Xmast 2008 n Happy Nu Year 2009

Merry Xmast 2008 n Happy Nu Year 2009 everyone!!!

May in 2009, we become better that the previous year!!

So..

in last Dec,10  my hamster , kimmi, is already  giving birth to her 7 children..

Previously, i got 2 hamsters, male and female, from my sister’s friends that recently having too much hamster to look after..

so after a few month, the cute little babies that i look after,is maybe on their period to “have sex”.. I dont know that this could be happen..

I wanna save kimmi (the female) to later be married with Jiro (the male) only if she’s ready.. after all, they’ve been brother and sister..

I just wish someday kimmi will find her own mate.. But Jiro has actually like her first.. and it seem that kimmi does to.. Hiks..

They were so young.. and i dont know when kimmi is pregnant..

I realize that kimmi’s appetite is going to triple to her normal appetite.. But i thought she was in her period of growth

suddenly.. around Dec,07 when i cleaned her house and i bathed her, i just realize that her stomach, that usually is empty, i felt that there was something hard in her stomach..

and after asking some profesional of taking care hamster, i was absolutely sure that she was pregnant

at first, i was dissapointed.. she was so young and still not mature yet in my eyes..

but i can accept that.. after i see that kimmi is still be friends with jiro.. they seem love each other..

i guessed that it wont be long before kimmi gave birth..

and here those cute little children of theirs

7-children-dob-10des2008

a piece of my thoughts

Sometimes, I hate my life..

It was so monoton,

so boring,

so hectic,

facing the same problems without getting out,

but I do know how to get out.. but it looks like that i’m still in my comfort zone..

See me..

I am still young..

I still want to travelling around the world,

I still want to deserve a better life than this..

I still want to get some fine salary, and prepare for my future myself..

I want new challenges

Meet some new friends

trying something different

I want 2 be a lot better from now

I want 2 be satisfied w/ my life

Well, I just want to make my life more colorfull that lately seem only black n white to me..

it seems like i need shopping n travelling (apa coba hubungannya? cepek deh)

bertanya tp ga mau dtanya

pernah ga sih ngalamin gini, ada org yg SUKA BGT NANYA2 LOE.. n loe uda ladenin.. bahkan loe ksh tau dgn sejujur2nya n seikhlas2nya tnp tedeng aling2.. tnp ada niat2 tertentu n tersembunyi..

krn loe yakin, dgn loe ksh tau, ga akan ada yg kurang dr loe.. krn rejeki org itu dtentukan oleh Tuhan n bukan manusia.. dan dgn loe ga ksh tau, loe merasa jd org yg culaas bgt.. hal ky gt aja diumpet2in (dsembunyiin).. pdhal mening kalo itu jd value added loe.. ttp aja klo Tuhan berkehendak loe pengganguran n jd miskin, ga ada plus2nya kan..

tp ktk gw nanya balik, utk hal yg sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt (itungin deh tuh sangatnya ada berapa) SEDERHANA , yg sbnrnya GA PENTING BGT, eh dia ga mau ksh tau loe..

Jd skrg siapa yaaaa yg culas??? org ky gn mst dgimanain neh? scara malesin..

God, give me Kasih Karunia-Mu

Pepaya Mangga Pisang Jambu

crtnya hr ini, gw n bu pen (alias bu peny wijayaaa kusumaaaa dewiiiii) ngmgin soal semangka awal2nya (krn kmrn2 gw bkn dia sirik, gw makan semangka tp dia gw panas2in tnp gw bagi.. bhkn gw smp krm image semangka k dia.. muaahahahahahaha *evil’s laugh*), lalu nyambung deh k segala buah2an.. dr buah duren sbgnya..

gini loh ymnya :

Peny Wijaya: jeng
Jessica: yaaa bu pen?
Peny Wijaya: gpp
Peny Wijaya: iseng doang
Peny Wijaya: sapa tau ada semangka yg bisa dikirim ekamri
Peny Wijaya: kemari
Jessica: wakakaakka
Jessica: bupen ksini donk
Jessica: k kompas yuk ya yuk
Jessica: aku beliin semangka de
Jessica: kalo perlu 1 buah
Peny Wijaya: ga mau kalo dibeliin semangka 1 buah
Jessica: yahh
Jessica: maunyaaa?
Peny Wijaya: maunya sekalaian ama tuikang buahnya –> dasar bu pen genit, ama p sigit ga mau.. hihihihihi.. ternyata maunya ama si abang.. ooowhhh.. pantesannn >.<
Peny Wijaya: biar tiap hari makan buah
Jessica: mana bs atuh jeng
Jessica: lgan si abangnya uda punya bini lohhh
Jessica: nanti bu pen digebukkin pake semangka lg ama bininya
Peny Wijaya: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh ga cuman digebukain pake semangka
Peny Wijaya: pake durian, pisang, sekalian ama nangka
Jessica: wahhh aku juga mauuu
Jessica: mangga, duku, ama rambutan ada juga kann
Jessica: jerukny klupaaaaann
Jessica: nyamnyam
Peny Wijaya: ada di pasar minggu
Jessica: lama2 kita bs buka usaha parcel bupen
Peny Wijaya: lagnya juga ada kan
Peny Wijaya: gimana ya jeng lagunya ?
Peny Wijaya: lupa aku
Peny Wijaya: maklum dah mau nini nini
Jessica: oooh
Peny Wijaya: yeeeee
Peny Wijaya: ini lgi blom digebukin pake buah
Peny Wijaya: dah ga nyambung duluan
Peny Wijaya: ditanyain gimana lagunya
Peny Wijaya: jawabannya oooh
Jessica: hehehehehehe
Jessica: iya neh
Jessica: tut tut

nah akhirnya gw search deh lagu pepaya mangga pisang jambu..

lagunya stlh gw liat2 mirip ama iklan Prabowo, yg suru beli bahan makanan dr lokal.. ktnya mah buat mensejahterakan rakyat cenah mah.. hehehe..

Pepaya mangga pisang jambu
Dibawa dari pasar minggu
Disana banyak penjualnya
Dikota banyak pembelinya
Papaya buah yang berguna
Bentuknya sangat sederhana
Pasanya manis tidak kalah
Membikin badan sehat segar
Reff :
Pepaya jeruk jambu
Rambutan duren duku dll nya
Marilah mari kawan
Kawan semua
Membeli buah buahan
Papaya makanan rakyat
Karena sangat bermanfaat
Harganya juga tak mengikat
Setalen tuan boleh angkat

I Will Run 2 U – Hillsongs

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand, it comforts me
From the ends of the Earth to the depth of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
‘Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

I kinda like this song..

reminds me that God always among us..

for those people who is sometimes leave God and forgot how kind He is, such as me.. =P

reminds me to walk into His path, because like He said before, that He is the path of truth n life, I shall not leave Him in that case..

Ok, juzt enjoy the song..

The Wonders – All My Only Dreams -

Every night I pray, I’ll have you here someday.
I’ll count the stars tonight, and hope with all my might.
That when I close my eyes, you’ll be right by my side.
If I could only have one wish you’d be the girl whose lips I’d kiss
All my only dreams.

And when I close my eyes, you’ll be right by my side.
If I could have just one request, stay with me girl I confess.
All my only dreams.
Any waking hour it seems, I only have you in my dreams
So every night I pray, I’ll have you here one day.

I’ll count the stars tonight, and hope with all my might.
That when I close my eyes, you’ll be right by my side.
If I could have just one request, stay with me girl I confess.
All my only dreams.

oOoh so romantic songs.. I wish I have someone who will give this songs for me..

ArriveDerci, My Fren

Last 19th, early in the morning, my best fren has died because of poison on his meat.

it was shocking and made us mad.

why must he died like that way?

plus the meat were nothing like ours. The meat must be somewhere else that some people that do hate him put it on it.

my dog usually ate chicken not beef..

so me n my family guessed that there were someone who has this plan on his mind to poison him.

It was 3am in the morning when my mom found him death but his body is still warm and his body has not been rigid.

Around him (pardon me), around his body, from his mouth, he has been threw up and from his ass, he also threw up some feces and some urine.

And my father covered up some small tiny pieces of meat around his mouth since my mother was too shock to wake him up, just wandering that maybe he still breathing.

But no. He has no breath. He has no tapping in his heart.

But he still warm that time. It means he has been death just when my mom found him laying on the yard.

He must absolutely being poisoned by someone.

I just hope that someone is being forgived for his/her sin poisoning some tiny little creature that harmless and has no strength or knowlegde to their evil thing and without any suspicious has been fell into their trap.

He was a small dog. Not from great breeder. He was so simple and kind.

and yeah.. He was so smart.. So smart to know what kind of people that needs to be bark.

what kind of animal that knew how to chase a mouse, bite it till its death without chewing and any bleeding..

He who always wants to intimate with us..

He who always sits around us whereever where we sits..

He who always follows our foot steps..

He always accompanny my mom when she was washing, when she was cleaning the yard..

He who always welcome us when we go back home with his little cute tiny tail that always wobbly when he’s happy..

He who always scare to the thunder when it comes to rain.. and alwas scare of firecracker when somebody fire it on..

and for He who always take care of my family when i’m not there, i was so thankful that me and family has kept him and take care of him like him also.

for those reasons, for how important is he in our life, he was buried in our yard..

He will always be around us.. He loves this house.. He never want to leave us.. So then he’ll always be around us then..

Goodbye my friend, eventough we all miss u a lot.. There are no house will be the same when u are gone.. And there were none that can replace any of u in our heart.. But i am sure.. U have been glad out there.. Even priest said that there were no Heaven for dogs.. I am sure that God has seen how brave, how loyal, how kind, how playfullness, how cheerfullness, and how lonely our days without u by our side..

Farewell my friend, i will never forget u for being the best part in our family.

here some photos of his, whose name will remail in our heart as always..